When a man who has lived in the centre of a dirty underbelly of the criminal world .
I’ll add sometimes not by choice !!! He’ll tell you a story , Along with his built in quirky mannerisms just to guide you with a easy brain processing memory intake in a mind confusion cluster fuck up of a situation . What only seems can be a slight twist, a slight key change of pace in this real dangerous situation it turned out to be , You might lose your way just slightly , maybe you missed something as he did while actually experiencing what unfolded in front of him every day this went on , Just one piece of information that you might over read a s he describes it , Alot of the time in crucial detail , You will actually need that bit of information to catch up that later on to make sense of it all , You will be flying twenty steps backwards to pick up that piece you missed only to move forward just one step to try and make sense yourself as you follow.. Although this is real and he wasn’t following a man with mannerisms.. It was his path in life which was only going to end one way .
Because this is a story not really heard of ? A story so true that it sounds so crazy it happened . It might even cross your mind that the man behind it all is crazy , not just a spice a story up with a few little quips to keep you gripped but the whole crazy obscene thing seems far too bizarre to have happened in our modern day , technology filled world .
It will be your decision to stay with him or get lost in the mazes that for a while he himself thought that the gas was burning too fast in his brain trying to keep up with the madness that persuaded even his own inner demons to deny or understand.
He himself once said the truth has always been madder than fiction is his world and somehow he doesn’t know what a quiet life is .. but he does crave it … But the power of the chase along with a loving man’s protection while truth seeking for justice and freedom, Always drawn him in closer and faster than any substance he had yet to experience in life compared to illegal drugs or alcohol , although he even mentions LOVE in this deadly cocktail ….. !!!
Due to the speed and the fast thinking on his feet.
This ex soldier needed this written down in black and white because no justice will be served before and after this real life revelation , but as he says to anyone who hasn’t got that daring glint in his or her eyes !!! This world is both brutal and beautiful when you truly and really live it !!!
This will be like the dodgems ride at the fairground.. you’ll gather moments , fast moments of confusion as the music speeds up and you’ll want to go fast .. but bear with it because when the man in the hat behind you gets to your cart on that dizzy mind bending ride, You’ll spin and like this soldier will have to do .. slow it down think forward , think backwards.
Hindsight isn’t always great as many of you will know .. it’s just a portal backwards not forwards .
Don’t forget the truth is always madder than fiction !!!
You’ll understand as the story goes on and hopefully many of you will relate and understand his decision making through the minefield that will present itself in this crazy mind bending turn of events that changed his family’s life as well as his own.
This was all in only 3 years so remember that as you take it all in.
From chapter 13 onwards … Well this was a short Sharp rocket that flew for the bright stars then burnt out .. but still alight unassumingly in the long winter grass over several months through the cold welsh winter.
Observations and fine details always came naturally to him like Peter Kay’s observations of what is so obvious when he mimics your uncle or auntie dancing at a family wedding ,
You were there and looking but you missed the importance of the detail.
So you never knew how funny your family is .. sort of ” you don’t know what you got till it’s gone ” as he later found out. It’s our own lives to live and lead and he will stand by every decision he makes on the way.
You know sometimes people ask me why I like to talk to strangers to see how they’re day is going (not scary evil ones or so he thought )
Answer is he doesn’t know. It just Fills gaps in life . You will realize yourself after understanding this story. Time on earth is so precious and so many of us throw a day away just to go to work to get home to spend very few hours with your loved ones.
Craig Jimmy Godbear.